The one thing that all my successes and failures have in common is me. Let’s start with “A” alcohol. I would drink to take the stress away and knock the edge off. Drinking affected my health and the health of people around me, because I already had a hair trigger temper and this just heightened it.
“B” episodes—I went into a manic episode in 2016 and I was placed under heavy medication. Since then I went on and off the medication which left me susceptible to other episodes which my wife and family and fans have had to endure.
“Ego”—My ego has a tendency to go past the threshold of being motivating and entertaining to just being overbearing. There are ways to show confidence without arrogance.
“Temper”—Now I know none of you all would ever picture this but, SOMETIMES I SCREAM, and that screaming might have helped me tell off everyone who doubted me in music, but that screaming did not help me keep my family together.
“Religion“—Self-righteous Christian behavior. When I got saved it did not immediately make me a better person it made me a self-righteous Christian. Mix that with being rich, famous, and very, very, very, very, very, very, attractive and you got a Molotov cocktail ready to be thrown through the window of anyone who ever disagreed with me. I was arrogant with my Jesus. Like I just got me some Jesus at the Gucci store with a stimulus check.
“Let’s go with politics here”—Good Lord my wife did not like me wearing the red hat. Being a good wife she just wanted to protect me and our family. I made me and our family a target by not aligning with Hollywood’s political stance, and that was hard for our marriage. Then I ran for President without proper preparation and no allies on either side. I embarrassed my wife in the way that I presented information about our family during the one and thank God only press conference. All my dad had to say afterwards was “Write your speech next time son.”
“F” is for finances—I spent money like crazy. I mean it’s the craziest thing I’ve done and I’ve done a lot of crazy things. As the priest of my home I must watch my own money and secure our finances. This is America so people don’t consider stealing to be stealing. They just chalk it up to greed, consumerism, and capitalism. I’ve let people use me. I’ve had giant entourages, people around me just to make me feel good about myself. I’ve had to learn that I had to take accountability. We always judge and tell other people what they should do, but we can only take accountability for ourselves and our children.
This Thanksgiving, I’m thankful for the family that my wife has given me. I’m thankful for the life that God has given me. And I’m thankful for your time, attention, and patience.
In Jesus name, Amen.