How I Stopped Stuttering

I often laugh when I think about my life.

I come from an unchurched family.  Never went to church or prayed as a family.  We never talked about Jesus.

And I grew up as a compulsive stutter.

And now I’m a lead pastor, conference speaker for the last decade, I’ve worked for Fox TV in Charlotte, ESPN, and now I have a radio spot called Just Marinating on New Life 91.9 that reaches 350,000 people per week.

God has done all this through a compulsive stutter.  

God takes the foolish things of this world to display His glory.  

I can take no credit for how God communicates through me.

People often ask me how I did stop stuttering.  And like a nine year-old in Sunday school class I say, “Jesus.”

Let me explain.

When I first heard the Gospel, I was blown away that God loved me so much that He was executed in my place on the cross for my sin.  

Jesus won my heart at the cross!

So upward I began to love Him.

Then something began to happen inward.  

For years, myself image was so low.  I had no confidence based on the pain of my past and the circumstances of my life.  So when people talked to me I believed what I had to say was not important.

But Jesus, give me new spiritual glasses to see myself.  

I reasoned “If Jesus loved me enough to die for me, then I must be valuable.  And my value was not determined by my actions, but by His perfect life on my behalf, His death on the cross in my place for my sin, and His resurrection.” 

In short, I began to love being Dewey because Jesus loved Dewey.  

So inwardly, I began to love myself.  This love was a humility creating love.

As the truth of Jesus’ love soaked in my soul, I reasoned, “If Jesus says I love you Dewey and you are valuable to me, then what I say is important so I will speak once in mind before I speak out of my mouth.”  

So outward, my speaking was transformed.

As a result of the Gospel, my stuttering began to go away.  I still stutter on occasion, especially when I tired, but here’s the deal: the Gospel is effective for every aspect of our life.

Marinate on that,

Pastor Derwin

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Derwin Gray
Derwin L. Gray is the founding and Lead Pastor of Transformation Church (, a multi-ethnic, multi-generational, mission-shaped community in Indian Land, South Carolina, just south of Charlotte, North Carolina. Transformation Church was recognized as one of the 15 fastest growing churches in America for 2010 by Outreach Magazine. Gray is the author of "Limitless Life: You Are More Than Your Past When God Holds Your Future" and is a highly sought-after communicator. Connect with Derwin on twitter @Derwinlgray.