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Scary Questions God Is Asking Me

God is trying to get my attention about my relationship with him, and it’s scaring me.

On Monday I wrote about an inner life that is “like a banana tree filled with monkeys jumping up and down.” Today in my time alone with God, as I was meditating on Habakkuk 3, he spoke to me about three more inner-life issues. Actually, he used this passage to ask me three questions about how I understand my relationship and my time spent with him. First, the passage that started the scary questions:

Habakkuk 3:16-18 (NLT)
I trembled inside when I heard all this; my lips quivered with fear. My legs gave way beneath me, and I shook in terror. I will wait quietly for the coming day when disaster will strike the people who invade us. Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation.

Here are the three questions God asked me through this passage:

1. What Are Your Assumptions?
Habakkuk’s lips trembled with fear, he became weak-kneed and he shook in terror as he heard from God. I read Warren Wiersbe’s comment on this in his Bible Exposition Commentary of the Old Testament: “Many people have the idea that it’s always an enjoyable experience getting to know God in a deeper way, but that’s not what the saints of God in the Bible would say.”

That’s true. Think about Moses who trembled in God’s holy presence; Joshua and David who fell on their faces before the Lord; Peter, James, and John, who were left face down in terror at the Mount of Transfiguration; and John who fell at the feet of the glorified Christ in Revelation.

Do I assume that my time alone with God will always be nice and comfortable and peaceful, or am I ready for him to drive me to my knees as I come into his holy presence? (This kind of reminds me of a line from a the song “I Can Only Imagine.”)

2. What Are Your Motives?
I kept reading in Wiersbe’s commentary: “God doesn’t reveal Himself to superficial saints who are only looking for ‘a new experience’ they can brag about, or to curious Christians who want to “sample” deeper fellowship with God but not at too great a price.”

How are your heart and attitudes, Mike? What are your real motives for wanting to draw closer to God today? I need to ask the Holy Spirit to reveal the answers to these questions to me, because I am not aware enough of my own motivations.

I had to ask myself some hard questions here, allowing the Holy Spirit to honestly search me and know my heart, to test me and know my anxious thoughts, to see if there is any offensive way in me (Psalm 139:23-24). I wondered why God was even asking me these questions. I think my motives are right when I come to him. But are they? Do I cherish my time alone with God because I might be able to blog about it later? Uhhhhhh….. What are your motivations for blogging, Mike? And how about your ministry? And the things you post on Facebook? And the things you write? And … (What questions would God be asking you here? Do you study Scripture to look like a Bible scholar in your group? Do you have a quiet time so you can appear pious among your friends?)

Are our motives ever pure? I’m not sure. But I do believe God is calling me to make mine more pure. I need to test my motives more as I go through my day. It’s part of the practice of guarding my heart.

By the way, I believe my motive for this blog is to honestly share my own struggles, because I think it might help you. I really hope this is true.

What Are Your Expectations?
One phrase in the Habakkuk passage really grabbed my attention: “I will wait quietly for the coming day when disaster will strike the people who invade us.” Wow. This was not what Habakkuk wanted or had hoped for (see chapter 1 of his book). But this phrase is more than Habakkuk’s quiet resignation. It shows his strong faith in God and therefore his surrender to God’s will. Habakkuk trusted God.

Could I say, “I will wait quietly for the coming day when disaster will strike”? Could I have that kind of peace in the midst of chaos? Could I trust God, knowing my nice little life (a phrase I’m borrowing from John Eldridge) was coming to an abrupt stop?

Habakkuk had a big disadvantage here. He was a prophet of God, so he knew what was soon to happen. Habakkuk did know what the future held, and he still trusted in the God who held the future.

The abundant life may not be what we’ve always thought it is. As Wiersbe says, “Habakkuk couldn’t rejoice in his circumstances, but he could rejoice in his God!”

Habakkuk had learned what Paul also came to understand: “Always be joyful. Keep on praying. No matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus” (1 Thess. 5:16-18). Paul knew this even as he sat in a prison singing praises to God. Jesus knew this in the Garden and on the cross. Not just resignation to the circumstances, but surrender to God’s will.

This one is really scary. Why is God showing me this now? Why is he asking me about this? Unlike Habakkuk, I don’t know what the future holds. But I know God is there. So I’ll learn to wait on him.

So, has God ever asked you any of these questions? I’d like to hear how you responded to them.

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Michael C. Mack founded SmallGroups.com in 1995 and served as a small-groups minister for more than 20 years in several churches. He is a writer, editor, trainer, and consultant in the areas of small groups, leadership, and discipleship. He is the author of more than 25 books and small group studies, including his latest, World's Greatest Small Group (pub. January, 2017). He regularly blogs on his ministry website at SmallGroupLeadership.com. His family is a small group that includes his wife Heidi, their four children, and their dog, Lainey. Mike is also an avid mountain biker.