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Does Faith Really Impact Life?

I sat at my desk, staring at my computer screen, with a knot in my throat.

I knew what I needed to do, but I was afraid to do it. I didn’t want to do it.

The Holy Spirit was impressing on my heart that I needed to find and forgive my father.

It was he who abandoned me at the age of five!

It was he who decided to live a destructive life that hurt him and excluded me!

It was he who never saw me play a football game – not in middle school, not in high school, not in college, not even in the NFL!

As I sat at my desk, I said something like this out loud to God, “He hurt me! I will not find him.”

Like the loving Father that God is, I sensed Him whisper in my soul, “You hurt Me with your sin, Derwin, but I found you. I’m rich in mercy and I have made you alive with my Son Jesus, so you can forgive your father.”

At that moment I had a choice: Would I live by faith or not?

To live by faith meant that I would extend the same forgiveness to my father that Jesus extended to me.

I made some phone calls to Texas. Eventually I found him. I then wrote him a short letter, seeking friendship.

A couple weeks went by, then I received a letter from my daddy.

I trembled as I opened the letter.

The letter said something like this, “Son, thank you for forgiving me. I want to be a part of your life and my grandchildren’s lives. I love you.”

That was the first time I heard my father say, “I love you” to me.

Today, my father and I are friends. Not too long ago, he dazzled my children with his skills in the game of Checkers.

I love him and he loves me, all because I chose to live by faith.

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Marinate on that,

Pastor Derwin

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Derwin L. Gray is the founding and Lead Pastor of Transformation Church (www.tc521.org), a multi-ethnic, multi-generational, mission-shaped community in Indian Land, South Carolina, just south of Charlotte, North Carolina. Transformation Church was recognized as one of the 15 fastest growing churches in America for 2010 by Outreach Magazine. Gray is the author of "Limitless Life: You Are More Than Your Past When God Holds Your Future" and is a highly sought-after communicator. Connect with Derwin on twitter @Derwinlgray.