The Empty Pursuit of Forgiving Yourself

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After my conversion, my pillow soaked up many tears—tears of joy at first, but then tears of sorrow.

Before I was saved, I was blinded by my own self-righteousness that told me I was fully in the right in the ways I wounded others. Though I never physically laid a hand on anyone, I knew how to leave a verbal bruise. I justified my words by convincing myself they were for my own protection. I hurt my parents, my boyfriend and my friends under the self-proclaimed cause of “self-care.” Every morning I seemed to wake with a further self-awareness of what a horrible person I was.

I wanted to find healing for my guilt. I knew many of the Bible verses that talked about forgiveness, but that didn’t feel like enough. No matter how many people told me that was a thing of past and I was forgiven, this guilt seemed to lay heavier on me each day.

I came to the conclusion that I was simply being too hard and needed to forgive myself. But I wasn’t sure how to go about doing that.

I poured my heart out to an older friend, and she hit me with a hard truth I did not expect: You don’t need to forgive yourself.

Why We Don’t Need to Forgive Ourselves

Is the idea of self-forgiveness in the Bible? Which verse calls us to forgive ourselves? Though the Bible discusses both guilt and forgiveness, it never once mentions forgiving ourselves. We are called to forgive others and seek their forgiveness. We are called to cry out for forgiveness from God. But we are never told we need to forgive ourselves—and it’s not because the command was forgotten.

Self-forgiveness says that we have the authority to choose if our sins are forgivable or not. But that’s not the case. Rather, Jesus paid the full price for your sins when He died on the cross and rose again. Jesus didn’t pay a part of the price and then ask you to finish it off. He fully atoned for each of your sins and bore God’s wrath that you deserved because of them.

If you can free yourself from guilt by forgiving yourself, then you are doing a work you were not called to do. Jesus says that no work is sufficient to take away your guilt, only His perfect sacrifice (Eph. 2:8–9).

Consider Isaiah 53:4–6:

Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned—every one—to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.

He was crushed, pierced and chastised for our sins. He carried each of our sins and sorrows. If you are truly saved, there is nothing you can do that His blood won’t cover. Though you went astray and rebelled against God in your past, He paid the price for your sins even still, knowing all the sins you would commit and did commit.

Friend, striving for self-forgiveness is a hopeless task. It will never bring you true relief from your guilt. Christ alone is sufficient to forgive your sins. So seek forgiveness from Him—repent of and confess your sins, and He will be faithful to forgive (1 John 1:8–9).

What to Do With Persistent Guilt

But the guilt is still there. Even after you have confessed your sins to God, you have confessed to those you hurt, and you have repented—yet the guilt still lays heavy on your heart. What do you do with it?

First, know this is false guilt. If you have sought the forgiveness of God and others and repented, then you have no reason to be guilty.

Instead of trying to muster up self-forgiveness, put that energy into preaching the gospel to yourself. When the thoughts of guilt and shame flood your mind, push back with the realities of the gospel. Preach the good news to yourself, and let your heart be refreshed with the joy of the gospel. Meditate on verses such as these:

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Lara d’Entremont
Lara d’Entremont is a Biblical Counselor in training, and her desire in writing is to teach women to turn to God’s Word in the midst of their daily life and suffering to find the answers they need. She wants to teach women to love God with both their minds and hearts. Lara is married to Daniel and they live in Nova Scotia, Canada. You can find more of her writing at laradentremont.com.

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